Ch..ch..changes

Strange how a piece of information given to you by a complete stranger can change how you see things. I'm sitting here just travelling through a mixture of emotions and I don't really know what the outcome is going to be yet. Just how I'm going to feel.

The trouble is how I'm looking at things is all based on past experiences and I don't know if what I'm thinking has anything to do with the present. Might do, might not. Who knows.

Some of what I was told was good, it showed me that I was looking at some things through a much too narrow sight and that I hadn't really been looking that carefully at the whole picture. It suddenly clicked into place when I was thinking about it by myself. Horizons need to be broadened. Or something. I wasn't really seeing what I had to do. It is much easier than how I saw things but it changes them a bit.

But the other thing she told me. And, I had guessed this to some extent. No, that's wrong, I was almost sure about it but didn't know. The other thing means I have to really sit down and think about a few things. I wasn't too happy having what I'd thought confirmed because it'd just been an opinion based on some of the things I'd seen happening and some of these were hardly that interesting and could've been read a number of different ways. But there was still this idea drifting through my mind that this is what was happening. If not now, in the very near future.

It's really made me realise that I have to stop and think. Maybe a storm in a teacup. Maybe not. It's just that I realise that my life will change once again and out of all the changes that have been coming in or might be coming in this might be one that I'll find hard to compromise on.

But, it may be that I haven't had time to really think and that it'll only take time to make things ok.

Most of this has been good and has made a difference in a good way but this last bit may be a bit problematic because of things in my past.

Maybe not, have to see.

Still no point in deciding before I know.

Huh

Snort ... snerk .... or whatever!!!